My Love

I am so much in love with my love. I remember the first time I spoke to her, her voice sounded worried, she seemed scared or she was lost in her problems. She was crying I just couldn’t take it, felt like tearing the whole world apart. I don’t understand, god why have you given her so much of problems, so much of worries. Take away all her worries and give them to me, that is how I thought and I just couldn’t see her in pain. I just know that in all these years for the first time I felt there is a purpose with my life, a purpose so meaningful that was worth living for and dying for. This one moment is what all of us search in our lives. At that moment all I wanted to do was make her smile. God has reasons for giving people pain but I don’t want her to be in any pain. I hardly know her for 7 months but it feels like I have spent my whole life with her.

If I see tears in her eyes I feel like I have lost everything and everything I have around me is just trash. I only wish she would have all the happiness, if I can be a reason or if someone else can be a reason to it or anything for the matter of fact that can make her happy that is all I wish to do in this life. That is my aim, and for the first time in my life do I feel that my aim is purposeful and worthwhile. In this world when all of us just want to make money and consider success with money and recognition, I strongly believe that her happiness is the most important achievement in my life. Tears roll down my eyes everyday I am not with her, but it also brings a smile to my face if I know she is happy. I just don’t feel the depth of my love in these words and I really wish I could tear this heart open and give it to her, all the way till it stops beating. I wish for such a death, so beautiful that god cannot refuse giving you to me even in my next life.